I was on the road this morning, listening to NPR’s “Morning Edition,” when host Steve Inskeep announced the death of author and illustrator Maurice Sendak. I beat my driving wheel in exasperation, exclaiming “No!” in the prolonged way we do when we’re heartbroken by this kind of news.
Almost immediately, my mind wandered back to an afternoon more than 10 years ago when I found my beaten down hardcover copy of Pierre: A Cautionary Tale at my parent’s home. In contrast to the brownish paperback version now sold, my hard copy of Sendak’s Pierre was light blue and not unlike this photo I found on the blog “Kid Lit Storytime.”
The cover had a texture to it so that running fingernails across it would emit a sound similar to running fingernails across a taut section of woven fabric. A wobbly “Christine” was scribbled on the inside cover. Words and letters were circled indiscriminately on various pages throughout the book, cluing me in to the fact that I read and re-read the book during a time in my childhood when my mom was studying for a nursing exam (I was mimicking my mom’s practice of underlining and highlighting sections of the books she studied).
The caution of Sendak’s Pierre lies in the stomach of a lion. Pierre is a boy who answers all questions with an emphatic “I don’t care!” He doesn’t care if he goes hungry. He doesn’t care if his parents leave him alone at home. His lack of regard is so great that he tells a lion that he doesn’t care if it eats him. So, the lion does. The lion eventually gets sick of Pierre in his stomach and must be taken to a doctor to have Pierre extracted. Upon rejoining the world, Pierre changes his tune to “I CARE!”
In looking up interviews of Mr. Sendak, I’ve realized that the reason why Pierre came to mind today and why it has always stuck with me is because it taught me to care about living and what I do in life.
“My big concern is me and what do I do now until the time of my death,” said Mr. Sendak in a 2004 interview with Bill Moyers for “Now on PBS.” “That is valid. That is useful. That is beautiful. That is creative.”
In the interview, Sendak reveals that he is more concerned about living than the fact that his books will undoubtedly leave a legacy. For Mr. Sendak, the idea that his books will live on when he dies is “lovely” and “gratifying.” But when Moyers expands the idea, claiming that the books ensure that Sendak himself will never die, Sendak responds frankly: “I have news for you. I’m gonna croak. I am gonna croak.”
“I want to see me to the end working, living for myself,” Sendak said. “[W]hat is the point of it all? Not leaving legacies. But being ripe. Being ripe.”
The Wikipedia entry on Mr. Sendak has already been updated to reflect the date of his death. And though his spirit thrives in his stories, I thank Mr. Sendak for teaching me that life is about savoring the present, that life isn’t so much about what we leave behind but caring about what we can do today.
I care!
(Photo from Kid Lit Storytime.)
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To celebrate, I treated myself to lunch at my favorite eat-by-myself-while-staring-out-of-the-window spot in San Diego: 

